what would i do

I need some creativity flowing through my blood, some juices of the divine coursing in and out of my heart and lungs and mind. I miss time to be creative and the motivation to express myself. I must first find some time to feel deep within myself what it is that needs to be expressed.

I have simplified my life quite a bit. Food, spending, activities, clothes, possessions all very near basic and simple. But I have not jumped into my life yet. I am still waiting, observing, thinking more about others and how to provide than sustaining the divine within me. I feel better in service to others and truly feel this is a beginning key. I just need to feel confident about my ability to consistantly provide that sustinance for my children. I need to be eating of the sweet honey and grains of the earth and not of human greed for more.

This may seem vague, but it is the closest to truth I have felt in a long time. I am working through a stand still in my life. I am feeling a great resevoir of power filling within me and the time will soon be ripe for it to pour out of me, I just need to concentrate on making it as pure and full as possible before the time comes to share my gifts with the world.

Creative project. I will paint, watercolor, of my favorite Tao poem including caligraphy and picture. This will simply be an act of therapy for myself. Creativity breeds life.