Busy Busy Bee

Sienna hates me Avra doesn't know me and Dante just shakes his head. Mom just isn't around. I need more time with them. Hence P.O.P 2.1 or 1.2 depending on what Joel types in his messages to me. Pay of PMI is the goal for the beginning of this year. Our taxes, bonus, any extra money coming our way will go to paying off our 20% down on the house. With PMI off out mortgage we can refinance it lower our payments rework our budget and hopefully by summer spend much more time together as a family and not so much time working.

Semitic studies in early modern comics. This is the class I am signed up for and I also found an online philosophy of religion class I hope to take. My goals are getting clearer the road more real and the challenges for confrontational. Iowa here we come someday. We will have the equity I will have the letters of recommendation and now we just need the patience and understanding of our children family and friends for this scholastic venture into Iowa in a few years. Professor Taylor sounds nice, but intellectual freedom sounds nicer.

Annie set me up with a new love and interest recently, Joel eat your heart out but there is a new man of consequence in my life, Joseph Campbell, the more I read about him the more I am willing to feel vindicated and right about my own views on spirituality and religion. I understand him and though he is almost 20 years gone I feel he understands me. He also started a Catholic turned to spirituality by the native history of out nation. I am Chippewa and was raised with those stories. I found psychology, eastern religion and then eventually self acceptance of my unorthodox and big picture thoughts. I will enjoy learning m ore about him and perhaps writing a review of him for admissions.

-Thank you Annie

Erin gave me great insight into his very successful and progressively manages tech business. This would be a realistic industry for me to fall back on, but I must first fail miserably at my own ambitions. Thank you Erin.

Angie you have given me acceptance and flattery by asking me to help with your project I will not let you down and we will get Jason to open up yet...how cool am I that I also own an INDEPENDENT sweatshirt.... I think I will wear it next time I am around him.

Melissa- I was blessed with one of the most wonderful date nights in a while, even mama mia will have a hard beating out the gambling camaraderie established the other night.

I was low today but I have been brought out of the dark by my own insight with a little help. As a wise man once said...

GOOD! I want you day dreaming, that's where the grandiose dreams of life are hatched...
those golden dreams that inspire us to defy gravity and believe in the unbelievable. Let the world work on whittling away your dream, that's what reality is good for. Our work is to keep the dream big, to move the world to make it fit... and to never stop dreaming.
So keep on Renee, without dreams life is drab, our thoughts settle, and there is nothing to illuminate another way.

You inspire me!- Joel Taylor

One for the Money Two for the show

It sure has been awhile but a lot has certainly occured in that time to prevent me from entering those events in.

My friend Annie entered me in on her new Bluufox website. It was a neat interview process and I appreciate her journalistic savvy. You can read it at http://reneetaylor.blogspot.com/.

I also had a wonderfully successful retreat experience with Joel for the Heart to Heart. This was a weekend of introspection and couple dialogue meant to spur new connection and better conversation on important matters of our lives. It was wonderful while it lasted. Presently Joel is on the couch, we are taking "time apart" to think about what we really want from life and from each other. Apparently Joel is really taking advantage of this time he has been impressing me with interesting insights about himself and life. He has been exercising and going in early in the morning so we don't see him then but I do get some good alone time then on Thursdays he takes the evening to write read go out do what he likes. I have started my French Class and am ready to sign up for my first religious studies class next Monday. I am still going strong with the Tao group and have been managing work and home far more successfully.

I had quite a few lofty New Years goals, the most important are to continue with my educational goals and get healthy. I decided a workout class was not quite my style but I have made workout time!! Twice a week for now. I am also spending time reading and being with the kids more. I will soon being spending a lot more time studying but I am excited for that.

I have been reestablishing my friendships with much rigor, I miss them and needs them and have so much fun with them...all I can say is PervArtistry!?!?!?!?!

I will try to be more diligent not that other's depend on this sight, Melissa, but I need it to vent and explore who I am and what I want out of life.

Talk to you soon-